Tuesday, June 16, 2009

It's all starting to sink in now...

Last night, over beers with friends, it began to sink in how much everything is about to change. It's all good... but, now that I'm almost done with my day job, I'm realizing how much influence it's had over everything else. I doubt anyone ever consciously decides to let a job (when it's not entirely your life's passion) take over almost every train of thought. And, yet, it does... and I realized last night that I'm going to have to come up with something else to talk about.

For the past few years, I've had a love-hate relationship with my job. Hugely supportive of the organization, overly frustrated with the bureaucracy and the day-to-day stuffs. And it became my default topic of conversation at friday happy hour and the scapegoat for why I didn't feel like going into my studio. Hmmm... again, not a particularly conscious decision.

So, now that I only have two days left after working in the same capacity for five years, I'm starting to see just how much things are going to change. Especially after July, when I'll be on the road. It's exciting and a bit nerve-wracking and extremely surreal. And, most of all, I'm hopeful that the part of me that always said "if only I didn't have a day job, I could make such great things" will actually take over, and great things will spill forth.

Who wants to help keep me honest? :)

1 comment:

jayme lynn said...

After working many years in a cubicle then suddenly being unemployed, it's a bit of a shock at first, but then you realize how much more there is to do around you. You will find other things to talk about and other things that'll keep you out of your studio, I promise. =)